apa nak jadiii

i feel like im getting far apart from Allah.... :( quran dah jarang baca,tp ada je sebelah meja ni ha..... bila ditimpa kesedihan or kesusahan,baru la teringat kat Dia. im so selfish. tahu la busy tp jgn la sampai tak sentuh kitab Allah wahai ilhammmm.

when i feel sad, just thinking about how jarang ilham spend time with Allah make myself even more sad. tadi sampai menitis air mata kenapa susah sgt aku nak baca quran likei used to bila xde pape nak buat kat bilik. mana pergi semangat tu :(

this is not good. u know to be a good muslimah, generally to me,ia mula dari kita solat awal masa waktu dah masuk. bila kita lengah kan masa,dah adasifat malas dlm diri kite. kalau solat pun lambat,bila masanya pulak nak baca quran. nampak sgt malas nye tu. :(

i feel so sad....................towards myself.

haih....




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sunshine

last night keluar dgn azim,and die ckp die ada post surat to me dari uia. and i dok argue,post surat? bila post surat? dah la die baru balik smlm. kan 3 hari ni holiday je ,mana nak sampai surat tu. and bila duk argue n mkn mcd, azim hantar balik and said,"bye ilham...and cuba check mailbox tu". masa ni ham da dkt luar kereta n dia dlm kereta .

i masuk rumah n i checked d mailbox and ada one white envelope. tgknye die just masukkan surat dlm my mailbox before ham keluar dr rumah utk gi mcd.

i smiled mcm gile n bila keluar rumah balik nk jumpa azim,azim terus drive balik. mcm surprise la..hahaha drama betul rasanya.

dkt surat tu ada tulis " to my dearest ilham....from azim,mahallah bilal,univerisiti islam antarabangsa,gombak,kuala lumpur".

siap address kkkk.

then 10 seconds lepastu die sms " hehe :)"

its d card for our 24th. terharu sikit coz this month die yg wish first and kasi card! i didnt do anything pun. huhu oh dkt card tu die tulis:

"you are my sunshine.."

"i dont mind living in a world without a sun to brighten up my days because as long as i have you,i have my SUNSHINE...lots of love,Azim"

cheeeeesy much. but i love it! coz benda tu die yg tulis , n azim x suke romantic2 sgt but once die tulis tu,i appreciate gilleeeeee.

huhu ok byeeee ;)

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I am over the moon!!!!!! I met Nurul Izz*h!!!

 

 

 

I am  SO HAPPY! I got to meet her! Dapat borak dengan dia! Dapat Salam and cium tangan and I managed to say this " Kak Nurul Izz*h , I am actually your big fan, dari kecik lagi tau..." and she replied " thats so sweet of you!!!" sambil held my hands.

And dia tanya what are you doing now? I said "I just graduated from UIA and now working as asst architect dekat architectural firm". 

And she said "Alhamdulillah!! Thats very good!"

(nampak muka i yg excited tu? huhuhu)  

=))))))))) Im so happy YA ALLAH tahu tak ive been following her story and her family dari I tingkatan brape ntah. Masa tu mmg baca every detail of her family tru internet. One thing that makes me feel close with Anwar Ibrahim's family is bcoz nama anak2 anwar ibrahim ada Nurul Ilham and Nurul Iman. Which nama I and nama my sister!! And ada Nurul*Nuha jugak,which Nuha is my closest cousin. Mcm wow semua nama anak dia semua mcm nama my family jugak.

huhuhuuhuhuhu

and.....

 

I dengan rasa confident nya pergi jumpa Dato Seri W*n Azizah and tanya boleh bergambar tak.

"Dr,boleh nak ambil gambar dgn datuk seri sekali?"

She smiled and terus tarik DS Anwar I*rahim and my father terus snap kan. OMG!!!! Can you believe it? i managed to meet DATUK SERI AN*AR IBRAHIM. FACE TO FACE! The person yg paling banyak issues and tak disukai ramai TETAPI saya sangat pandang tinggi dkt dierg. 

always and always and always...

Theyre one family yg sangat sangat baik sporting and friendly.

I managed to snap this too!!

Sucha beautiful familyyyy =')))) 

Honestly, ham macam stalker giler dtg rumah anw*r ibrahim ni. I tengok semua benda. I even told myself, tak ada org teman pun takpe coz I observe EVERYTHING and tak perlu kwn utk berborak,buang masa!! huhu and I kept searching for Nurul Izzah. Mana ni...mana ni.........mama and baba duduk dekat hightable with d pengantin so they left me alone and I didnt mind at all. I snapped everything. =)

 

Me with Nurul*Nuha...Yg budak kecik tu is anak Nur*l Izzah! Cantik k mata dia!!! huhuhuhu 

 

Another picture of us! and mama. hehehe masa ni all d photographers  dah 'attack' so semua org pandang tempat lain wuwuwuuwu but im still happy though hehehehheheh.

Seriously i am so jakun ANd excited dari pukul 2pm!!! Bayangkan,12 pm dah gosok baju cuci muka ,potong kuku and everything. Semangat gilerrr. Pergi bertolak around 6pm so korg bayangkan 6 jam ham pilih baju and tudung and siap2 semua so that I feel fresh until malam. I was that excited. Memang ham pergi utk as rombongan lelaki but my main aim is to get to meet Nu*rul Iz*zah and An*war I*brahim!! uhuhuhuhu BEST!!!

Anyway kesian pulak takde gambar pengantin lelaki and perempuan. Sian dierg ni. Im so jahat I ditched them. huhuhu

Perfect pengantin. Bagai pinang dibelah dua! Thats N*urul Ilham and Redza. Muka dierg sebijik okkkk. He is an IIUM graduate ,a lawyer,and boleh pulak ada my law friends ni member Redza jugak. Sucha small world. Huhuhu

Ok goodnite people. Syukur Allah kasi peluang jumpa DSA*I and Nurul*i*zzah.

Thanks MamaBaba bawak ham skali!!!!

p/s : Sorry if korg annoyed ada * dkt nama2 dierg. Taknak kalau org google nama2 berkenaan,terkeluar blog ham nanti. huhuhu

yeay!

im gonna attend anak dato seri anwar ibrahim's wedding! im going to his house tonight!!!! im going to meet his family members that i look up to especially nurul izzah anwar! i hope everything will be alright so that i can meet them!!!!!! i dont really give a damn about DS anwar ibrahim's issue about liwat bodoh semua tu coz knowing his family background with beautiful wife and children, why would he do that such things? bodoh giler siapa yg fitnah. takpe result mahkamah 9 january ni,we'll wait and see.


but plssss doakan i can meet them personally!!!! :)

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nafsu?

i dont know why i am so into ipad2 lately. mcm hati membuak2. ini semua nafsu ker? since my laptop tgh problem giler coz xleh pasang internet, i think ipad is something i NEED.

please believe me.

please.

:)

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updated! hehe

lama takupdate blog. :( well my life has been good,to whoever that concerns. family, irdina,azim :') alhamdulillah sangat sangatttt. anywaysss, i have another 6 months to prepare my application to continue my study. 6 months of....leisure!!!! dekat mana insyaallah dkt UIA. i will work it out insyaallah. diri ni dah membuak buak nak sambung study. kerja pun best sebenarnya but i think im too young to work in a real world. macam tak serious lagi. macam kalau nak kahwin and work,mesti serious pasal nak kumpul duit beli itu ini and money is so important that time,so serious la jadinya. mcm kita ada target duit tu utk apa and siapa. now macam alahaiii duit dapat untuk joli jer. beli baju makan best best. hahaha mmg la syok but....thats not i want. bukan my target. get what i mean ? i know i hv gained so freaking byk experience while working, best, but actually banyakkk lagi benda perlu belajar. im so eager to study. i will try dkt uitm um and uia insyaallah. dulu tak dapat,this time nak try again mana tahu Allah murahkan rezeki :)

ape ape pun now my plan is in 6 months duration from now. i know my life will turn its mode to hectic mode once sambung belajar, thats why i want my another 6 months to be awesome!

things in my head always has been theseee : my trip to USA , insyaallah kalau jadi pergi around April 2012. mama dah tengok flight tickets semua. hehe. tak tau la jadi ke tak,kalau Allah tak izinkan,mesti tak jadi punyakan,so insyaallah dgn izinNya. kalau tak jadi,its okayyy coz i hv another trip to Singapore,which i know benda ni confirm jadi at anytime because i will b going there with Naquiah,so kene ikut schedule dia coz her family lives there n have a place to stay :) and buy lots and lots of baju , tudung and semua benda tu so that nanti masa zaman belajar,tak kisah pasal ni dah. lol :)

and tu jer so far yang main ones.

oh cerita psl azim pulak, tadi baru je dia datang my house kejab to meet before die pergi main futsal. soo happy bila die singgah depan my house. i dont know why my heart keeps beating faster everytime jumpa dia. i know i sound so cheeeesy but its true. 5years and i am still smiling happily and in love all over again everytime i look at him.. but guys i know my limit ok? jangan risauu hehe saya jaga diri saya but this feelings takleh cover punya ish i hate it. im a girl ,mesti la excited terlebih kan haha so mengada nak bagitau semua org kat blog ni ha ha bare with me k guys huhuhu. jgn menyampah plsss :))

anywayyyyyyy oh ada benda nak bagitau. just a pengajaran la for you guys yer. meh ham cite sikit. hari tu ham pergi this wedding ceremony ni tau,everything semua okay,from pelamin,ushering guests,food,doorgifts and all. semua nya okay la takde yg spoilkan, BUT,satuuuuuuu je yang spoilkan EVERYTHING and it happened masa event dah nak habis. its a sit down event kan so semua org dalam hall. and ok, ada pihak keluarga ni,which abang ipar kepada pengantin perempuan bagi speech utk say thanks for their family behalf. and you guys nak tahu apa yg spoil nya? let me ulang k apa dia cakap...huhu,oh dia lelaki tau,late 30s kot.

"dengan ini saya akhiri ucapan terima kasih saya ini dengan serangkap pantun. i hope you guys faham and boleh accept this pantun that i have to read, coz working in a MARKETING SECTOR and a MARKETING PERSON, saya tak reti sangat pantun pantun ni, also as a OVERSEAS GRADUATE, i hope you guys get the pantun message read by me...here it is.....(which die baca pantun)"

omg, korg dapat faham tak apa i tulis atas ni. its not exactly mcm tu la but yg i tulis capslock tu sumpah sebijik mcm org tu cakap.

gosh,BERLAGAK GILA. perlu ker anda cakap anda overseas graduate dekat depan lebih 500 orang? perlu ke? and my parents pun study sana and they boleh je BACA pantun. not that kene syair merdu merdu or ape2. pantun tu dah ada dkt script kot. ape yg susah overseas graduate nak baca? gosh. SPOIL gileeeeee.

so now if i teringat pasal wedding tu, i teringat pasal that guy punya speech yg berlagak tu. omg. tak best plsssss.

and dengan cara die cakap tu for less than a minute, dah boleh tahu dah dia punya attitude macamane. kan? so a lesson for us, tak perlu la nak berlagak2 mcm tu. just dont say it at all and everyone is happy. so berhati hati la nak bercakap tu. even with one single word boleh buat org lain terasa or tak suka and meluat.

huhu,k bye korang,thanks for reading. love you.


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demam and mc?

im sickkk. org2 kat rumah mostly tgh tak sihat. kakning,irdina and me. but kakning dah sihat. 4 hari dia demam. irdina demam 2 hari. now dah sihat..ham pun demam dua hari. but belum sihat 100percent lg :( tak tahu la kenapa dgn badan ni. rasa x sedap...rasa.....asyik nak muntah je tp x muntah pun. you know that kinda feelin.. :(


and now im blogging from home. yes TAK PERGI KERJA hehe dpt mc satu hari :) semalam pergi clinic xdpt mc utk harini and doctor tu ckp kene pergi harini utk dpt mc harini. so i did and senang je dpt mc. senang dpt psl doctor semalam kerek nak mampus. ye la what do u expect semalam demam gi clinic,hari ni dah sihat dah leh kerja? hei machaaaaaaa.

my mom pun x suka that indian doctor. byk songeh. td doctor lain,die x jumpa ham pun,die tgk card and maybe he was like "oh dia dah dtg smlm psl demam,ok la saya bg mc terus ,takperlu suruh die masuk bilik utk check".

easy. saya happy semua org pun happy.



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hes bacccck

azim is here :) he bought me a necklace made from seashells. custom made one coz kene tu tunggu 3hari baru siap. hehe and ham tgk gambar2 dia kat lima,he tangkap gambar dgn org2 mcm cerita pearl harbour. org yg bawak jet lps tu pusing 360 degrees dkt langit tu. omg best gile tgk gambar. handsome giler org2 US pakai baju uniform. azim pendek diri dgn dierg so i think US ppl mcm 2metres height kot coz azim pun mcm 180cm height. hahaha ok bye. ham kinda demam n selsema sikit coz jangkit dgn kakning/azim. :( azim bwk virus from langkawi. dang

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engineer...

i have to write this. serious rindu giler dkt org berkenaan. i know im not supposed to be mengada and tell d world how much i miss that person, but heck, it has already been 5 days kitrg x jumpa each other and its kinda killing me. haha over tak. over kan,but its kinda true :(

sorry mengada sikit tak tahu nak express my feelings dkt mana. and obviously i dislike long distance relationship. i know langkawi is not that FAR,notlike he is in London or smething but he is supposed to be 3minutes away from my house je kot,but nope he is currently working for LIMA2011 specifically in Aerospace exhibition in Langkawi,Kedah :(

but lucky us, my aunt gave both of us free maxis line ,one for me and one for azim,and this package valid until March. so 5months free of charge,best kan? last night kitrg on the phone for an hour without feeling guilty. :) seronok! azim said he will give my aunt something in return. :) glad that he acknowledged it.... although it was just his thought but i was so glad hearing it for him....

sorry this entry is all about him coz my mind cant stop thinking about that special person of mine and i am teribbly feelin happy and excited to meet him this Saturday :DDDDD


sorry for my mengada. cant help it. hehe :)

loves,
ilham



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penatttt

first of all,nak ckp ni dkt ina: I PUN RINDU SEMUA BENDA YOU TULISSSSSS PSL KITE SEROOMATE NI :((((((( dpt kwn and hidup ngn korg for 4 solid years is one of the best thing happened to my life. i love you guys and miss us so much!!!!

huhuuhhuuh tadi balik dari site,baca blog ina,terus mcm omgggg rindu gileeeeeeeee smue benda ina tulis, sometimes ham x ingat sgt oun sedetail ina tulis so when ina wrote in her blog baru i macam OMGGGG haah rindu gilssssss. huuhu

:)

btw hari ni 2 jam je duduk office. hari ni berjalan2 dgn my senior architect and my partner yg siapkan bungalow project. its sooo hassle ok,rupanya susah jugak nak berurusan dgn semua org ni. like you have to go tru every little things to make the land is finally approved . oh life.

i dont wanna talk much here but im glad hari ni i learnt A LOT OF THINGS. omg. like byk giler coz my senior architect just explain serba sedikit but die suruh i dgn kwn i pergi deal sendiri dgn pegawai tu.

seriously, he trusted us. die tunggu dlm kereta je kot,let us go alone. so nak taknak kitrg kene beranikan diri and askkkk and discuss. bagus jugak mcm tu..huhu

tadi dpt pergi MPS which Majlis Pembandaran Selayang,and then pergi PTG which is Pemajuan Something Gombak. haha x ingat but we deal pasal conversion land from pertanian into pembangunan.

we had to ask about the premium fee, lebar main road kalau rezab melayu, kene ada 'hammer road' application ke kalau tanah less than 2 acres. brapa LCP kene sediakan to submit to JKR. caruman parit berapa and is it included with the 66ft. etc.

mula mula pecah kepala but knowing that myself have to prepare the important Laporan Cadangan Pembangunan buat ham rasa diri lebih berani. coz boss dah amanahkan utk prepare the LCP so kene la serious benda2 mcm ni.

this jumaat ada second meeting with the same members which i dah kenal hahaha pn zaidah the M&E engineer, en ghazali the civil and structure engineer, en ariffin the QS and en yusof the Planner. asyik2 kene update je progress tru fon. ofcoz la dierg x kenal ham coz sapa la nak pandang assistant architect. huhhuhu but yeah this week penat,both mentally n physically,fiuh.....


wish me luckkk. :)

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berat

berat saya dah naik!!!!! o goshhhhh. :( sangat terkejut tgk weight machine tadi. saya harapkan weight machine itu punyai ralat positif,tapi takdeeeeeeeee omgosh im dead meat. tu laaa tak pergi bersenam lagi,kan dah naik berat tu :(

waaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!



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Bestnyer lagu ni!!!

Hayati lirik dia. Best giler giler giler. Lagu pun best . Suara pun best! BEST!!! ;')

Hmmmmmmm :/

My friend's , Pa'an, status, posted few minutes ago. Bila baca macam.......oh gosh......sebak pun ada.....psl benda2 ni dah and sedang berlaku dkt persekitaran kita.Cuba korg baca...


Sekarang ni, kalau perempuan pakai hijab, pegang gitar, boleh menyanyi lepastu upload dekat youtube, post dekat fb, blog dll kira cool la ni ? Nah amek ni:
'Ali ibn Abi Talib said, "The Prophet said: 'If my Ummah bears fifteen traits, tribulation will befall it.' Someone asked, 'What are they, O Messenger of Allah?' He said, 'When any gain is shared out only among the rich, with no benefit to the poor; when a trust becomes a means of making a profit; when paying Zakat becomes a burden; when a man obeys his wife and disobeys his mother; and treats his friend kindly whilst shunning his father; when voices are raised in the mosques; when the leader of a people is the worst of them; when people treat a man with respect because they fear some evil he may do; when much wine is drunk; when men wear silk; WHEN FEMALE SINGERS AND MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS BECOME POPULAR; when the last ones of this Ummah curse the first ones - then let them expect a red wind, or the earth to swallow them, or to be transformed into animals.' " [at-Tirmidhi]

yeay!

oh yes. i have new specs now :) its frameless and i look a wee bit like my mom. hehe. coz mama pun pakai frameless. seronok bila dpt pakai something atas titikpeluh sendiri. seriously guys,rasa mcm its soo worth it. :) nanti saya letak gambar,ok?



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Location:my rooooooom

Jalan TAR

Hello guys ;) salaam

today is SATURDAY. So semalam ham apply cuti ,and same goes to Kakngah. Kitrg dah plan for this girls-day outing for almost a month. So semalam lah masanya ami ronda2 KL. hehehe.

nothing much tho, kitrg just pergi Jalan TAR and shopppinggg. Since tht ham dah kosongkan my wardrobe and most of my baju ham kasi Kakning (Kakning terus pakai esoknya tau,d thirts,the pants, and even long sleeve shirts,kakning buang the dart so that muatan dkt badan dia. omg she's sooo creative and determined. ),so what I have been looking for quite some time is new tops. yup, new blouse,yang cantik2. 

ina dah bagi suggestions and loved one of d tops listed,but itu nanti dulu bila gaji dah masuk. YES m gaji belum masuk. FTW!!! haha ok i cant be too angry with this coz not that i dont have money,but o well,i need baajuuu.

oh and masa pergi Jalan TAR, kakngah cari tudung syria yg outer dia jer,and kain 4 meter..nak buat baju.. she bought kain mcm 5 pasag ,tudung 5 helai, baju 2 kot. And me, kain dua helai YANG MURAH GILERRR, but cantik gilerrr. Its soo my type!!!! Nak tau hrga berapa ? 4 meter cotton = RM18!!! CRAZY! but yeayyy boleh buat baju kurung modern! huhuhu and I bought two silk-look-alike tops.

the highlight of yesterday's outing is of course,dapat jumpa baba!! hehe baba kerja dekat bangunan inceif,menara tun razak i think, so ,masa solat jumaat,kitrg call baba mana tahu boleh minum2 ke. Then after solat jumaat baba ckp lets meet up in front of Masjid India punya entrance. So we did and baba bawak minum kat O'briens dkt bangunan Menara OCBC depan LRT Masjid Jamek. Loved it. eventho baba ada kerja but baba spent time with us yang 'tak kerja' ni. HEHEHE

Suka please keluar dgn my own sister. dah lama gilaaa tak keluar berdua. rasa mcm shes still single. pastu one time tu tgh jalan,kakngah ckp "eh jab ham nak belikan Dina clip rambut". Then i was like "ehh ha'ah kakngah dah ada baby". hahahahahha mcm hampir terlupa that kakngah ada irdina so she had to buy something for dina. Mcm cute giler ingat dekat anak . durh sapa tak ingat anak oi.

Then balik tu,kitrg mcm 'Dinaaaaaa mama and cuham dah balik!!!" (sambil letak semuaaaa plastic dkt ats karpet) , and dina terus hyper!!!!!!!!!!!! dah la muka dia banyak bedak ,die pun gelak2 sama mengoped barang2 dlm plastic. huhuhuhuhu and she loves the clip. tak usik pun kat rambut dia tu. huhuhuhu

Ok im in love with the silky tops,nak beli lg la dkt Jalan Tar. huhu byeeee